Wednesday, August 1, 2012

My Hero My Nana

Not everyone is as blessed as me and my family. Not everyone has had the privilege to know my grandmother, Sondra Janine Barnard. If you are one of the lucky ones you know how special she was, if not, I will tell you.
My Nana was the epitome of a selfless, generous, loving mother and Nana to all she met. I do not have a friend who calls her Sondra. She is and has always been Nana. I have never encountered anyone who took care of people and genuinely cared for others as she did. I completely credit her for the compassion and empathy I have for others, it does not compare to hers, but it is definitely where I learned it.
To clear the air, my Nana is living the last days of her life as I type. Even in her last days, where she is her weakest, miserable, and in pain there are still moments of her old self that come through. She is amazing even in the midst of all of this. She is my hero. She is who I want to be when I grow up. The legacy that she leaves behind is one that I hope I can leave behind for my children, grandchildren, great- grandchildren, family, and friends. Is she perfect? No, but to me she's been close.
I thank God that He let her be my Nana. I am thankful that she was such an amazing mom to my mom, uncle, aunt, and countless others. Without her we would not be the people that we are today. I am so thankful that we got to experience complete and total unconditional love, no matter what.
Now you know a little about my Nana, who I have a very hard time sharing, even with my boys. I will cherish the time I have had with her, especially these last few days, weeks, or however long she hangs on. My life is better for knowing her, like I said in the beginning, "Not everyone is as blessed as me and my family".

Thanks be to God for His indescribable gift! (2 Corinthians 9:15 NKJV)